The 2nd Division Win: Part 1

"Failure is the mother of success." I don't know who originally said this but I've heard this this morning during the 'They Kiss Again' program in Studio 23, this quote was spoken by Jeanie (if that ever is the correct spelling of her name).

They told me ma'am Coloma was looking for me. I wondered why. After the long, long time disregarding their calls, i went to the office (the schoolpaper's) and met with ma'am. I saw there many of the fourth year students who are also members of the paper. She talked to me and asked me if i was willing to join them and be the newswriter...asked me if i had experiences when i was elementary...compete in presscons... and i said "never". And i also don't have much talent in writing news. I dunno if i have much confidence, but since i already thickened my face a bit during the Science contests, then why not try the Press Conference?

"It may help you boost up your confidence more," i said to myself.

Although i'm not that good with news, although i am not gutsy enough to compete again, although i'm beginning to think pessimistically for another time, i tried to answer ma'am Coloma's question with a reluctant "Yes, I am willing to learn."

I remembered so far i thought to myself, "What have i done again?"

Uuugghh! Those words. I really get into my own nerves. I am not valorous enough to face a new challenge. (I speak like i'm obliged to.)

There is no turning back. I already said yes. I guess i'm being afraid of ma'am. You know, i become frightened when she's in the mood (the bad mood). And i hate to see dismay in people's eyes.

I just "impregnated" (i like using fancy words, if that ever is fancy) in my mind that this'll help me more in my academics, in my extra-curricular activities. I guess it's not too bad. I even think that i'm the only one who avoids opportunities (when i even know that much more talented people than i am, lose in competitions) when other people don't even mind if they win or lose. What do i think of myself? Maybe that time, or shall i say, maybe all the time, i am being "avoidant" of failures. (Wow! I thought of avoidant as a word, then i browsed the dictionary to see if it exists, and i've read 'avoidant personality disorder'... but no avoidant alone, but since it's used already in that phrase, maybe i could use it.)

• Now i am being more narrative than ever. My past blogs were just composed of little details (as far as i can think, i am always unsure...never mind that). I didn't even try to use some metaphors, personifications and et cetera.

I Proceed:

Ma'am Coloma, who was my English teacher during my freshman year, trained me to the highest level of her psychic powers. (Don't get me wrong with the words i use, i just like exaggerating when writing or whatever, i don't exaggerate true stories...grrr! Just don't mind me!) I have had a hard time learning. All i did were still 1 or 2 mistakes away from perfection!...or even more than 2.

My knowledge isn't deep enough as the Pacific Ocean, and i am starting to worry. I tried being optimistic as Betty La Fea was (if it had already been aired during that time). My coach gave me some tips...papers...books...encouragements also, i think...and some works to do.

Oh! I am so far still. I've been traveling for--like an hour, but i'm not still in the earth's core!!! (There i go again with those words...what figure of speech did i just use? Ooohh... I am so addicted to English) I studied hard and prepared myself for all the disasters that i will be facing, exaggeratingly speaking, and i had read the "all-about Journalism" book that was given to me for...many times.

• (Startled) Oh no! It's 30 minutes past 2 am. I need to sleep. I'll continue the story tomorrow. If i have time. But i know i will. I need to take some rest. And for the computer also. I pity it. Let's not make it work 24/7.


• Oh, and by the way, i'll tell you what the quote (the one i said above, at the first paragraph) means to me and how it is connected to my story.


• This post will be long enough that i need to divide it to how many parts. But i guess 2 will do. [I am surprised that i become loquacious during nights, or dark times (literally), ideas easily 'spore' in my head. What a nocturnal mind.]


• Wow! A thought just came into my brain. Writers usually work at night i suppose. LOL. Am i showing the signs and symptoms of "Writer's Syndrome"? Well, if true, then i'm glad i have them. (Laughing!) Perhaps, i need not to lengthen this post anymore, it'll be boring if it's too long. It's also tiring to read such long stories.

End of part 1.